My body has ached and I’ve felt off this past week. Best I can figure, I’ve allowed stress to waylay me. I can’t say that I’ve properly identified the cause of it all, but I can say that I (finally) took a few steps to remedy my ailments. I’ve attempted to distance myself for a bit from an overwhelming and incomplete task list (currently at 177 items!). I’ve devoted extra and intentional time to family. I’ve lazed with a few TED talks & the series Touch on Netflix. And, I’ve made it outside for a few midday walks.
I was, yesterday, awash with the beauty of autumn & song – peace to a harried life. Fall has always been a season that seems to get me. His mercies made new – even in the dying. There’s beauty in the fading and His glory abounds.
What a wonder to see this earth-born life drawn skyward!
If only there was some way I could remind you how great things really are.. But that is impossible to do. I wish I could. Even I still talk myself down occasionally. :/ You know how jealous I am of you sometimes? Seeing your young family, seeing you guys play board games, Interact with family. Jealous! But then I know you are away from family, and YOU are likely jealous of others that are getting together while you cannot. You know what though? As I get older I get less stressed. I don’t worry about anything as much as I could / might otherwise. Part of me thinks.. “Oh, you are letting go of those ambitions,, that’s not a good thing..” But you know what?? I have gotten more stuff done since losing some care than I ever have! lol.
Just look up, look at that awesome sky, see how little you are. All the cares and worries you have right now? In a couple years you won’t even remember what you were worried about! It’s crazy. But everyone has similar issues on one level or another. You are clearly not alone… AND, you have GREAT things to acomplish in the future. 🙂
I didn’t know you were jealous at times. I do know that we are blessed. Being away from family is a challenge at times. In recent days, I think I most long for the “settledness” that others seem to have. Still, I know there is great opportunity in continuing in this somewhat itinerant life & career.
Thank you for the encouragement. Hope to keep this head up and this heart right.