Once upon a rare moment, you are ushered into a place where reality is inescapable.
This morning, for but a few minutes, I (and others) had opportunity to video chat with the Doyle family (Dieter, Angi, Jarryd, Ashley, Judah) and the team they are guiding into an experience of disciple-making mission from their home of South Africa, through Botswana and Zambia, and into Malawi. Those moments this morning stuck me square in the face of reality. As others conversed and prayed, I was met with a familiar longing (maybe something reminiscent of a calling).
Remember New Dawn? It’s odd. Then and now, it is a calling, not to some specific task or duty, not to some specific place or people group, but to partnership and relationship.
I joined New Dawn (Dave, Carly, Jenny, Luke) after having led them through one month of mission preparation and an additional week of travel on the road. Thinking back, I must consider that God’s nudge to a third year of service with Youth Encounter was so much less about a ministry program with an organization I had come to love, and so much more about the individuals with whom I would walk the way of the cross. It was a call to relationship.
Being in the presence of the Doyle family again (even if only by the wonders of modern technology), sobered me from the stupor of the mundane. I realized, without a doubt, that I miss these folks. Our connections to the Prayer League were forged about the same time of 2012 and since then, we’ve been slowly growing to know one another. Apart from my parents, they were the first to meet Simeon, trekking to the hospital only hours before they were to catch a flight home to South Africa. We’ve camped together, drank a good deal of coffee together, ate Seder together, and walked along together exploring the stranger ways of our faith.
I remember when Dieter and I first met to collaborate and wrestle with the thoughts that had been resounding in his head and which resonated with my own spirit. We walked to a local coffee shop … and, I only realize this now as I write — I returned to that exact chair this afternoon, and, though distracted by other tasks, my intent was to put words to these thoughts. That my friends, is crazy. Signs … everywhere signs. It seems when they come, they often come in force. God has a way about that. Even at that time, when we first met, I sensed that God might well be knitting a partnership for mission. Ever since, even, there has been a purpose percolating in the midst of our fellowship.
I sense it more and more each day. This morning, in one contemplative moment, I was truly thrust into wonder at what God might have planned for the coming days.
Pray with our family, as we continue to listen and discern. And pray for the Doyles and the rest of the freeWord team, as they soon embark on a journey to Malawi.
J.R.R. Tolkien
The road goes ever on and on down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone, and I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with weary feet, until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say.
Lord, lead on. Amen.
We turned into one big goosebump while reading this this morning
It was a joy to see you yesterday set to embark on this exploratory mission. When I woke this morning, I had to ask myself, “Wait, what did I write last night?” It is true, we are sensing a call stronger and stronger; yet, simply waiting for the fullness of time.
joshua, from your writings i can see God is having His way with you. makes me happy and makes me cry all at the same time. you are such an inspiration to me. i know i’ve told you before, but i must thank you again for turning me on to oswald chambers 🙂 i know i have grown closer to God with it being my daily devotion for 7 years now. in 2009 on jan 14th i wrote in the margin and underlined, with you in mind. i’ll let you go back and read it. it starts out “the chosen ones are those who have come into……”
love you, pray for you and your family always
Vigilant ears. There is much to much that works to deaden our spiritual senses. Praise God when he throws the water in our face. We have quite a selection of other writings by Oswald Chamber here in the home office library. I really should dig into some of that.
percolation NOW.
it was good talking with you last night:) when i first read this post, the tears came easy, i mean what mother or grandmother wants to say goodbye to her children and lose them to a far away land! dad says “be happy!” i love how he always makes me come back to reality:) he says” you have them on a plane already!!!” but seriously joshua, i do have concerns and they are only earthly concerns, how will they live, i mean what will the conditions be like? will they be free from diseases that are only in third world countries? remember we only heard you got malaria after the fact! when will i see them next? on and on my mind goes. and then yet i know you hear the voice of Jesus calling:) i have always known you have a calling, a bigger mission than most…it doesn’t make it easy on a mom, yes i am proud of the man you are, and i do have to remind myself of that… you are not my little boy and i have no control!! here i go, tears flow. i do take comfort in the fact you have a friend in Dieter. God Bless you my son, i will always be in your balcony:) wherever you go, if God calls you to a far away land or here in the states:) i love you, mom < +